Fell asleep she was alive. Woke up to reality. I have to wonder again, why? Yes, I know, it bring a tear to your eye. I have to wonder why again. A no good dad still lives. While my broken to pieces mother’s dead. Our relationship wasn’t very positive. Still have negative thoughts about her. But at least she wasn’t as much a money vacuum. That’s my “ father ”. Too many tears recently I cry. Thinking how it’s my fault she died. What’s a young man to do? I should just face the truth. It’s not my fault. I’m not gonna lie, we had a fight. I’m not proud. Dumb ass kid acting a moment he should. I know I was wrong. I’m sorry. One of the pieces of guilt I carry. But I gotta let it go. To continue character growth. I hope my dad knows one thing though. If you find yourself in the pit. It’s because you were a true piece of shit. Maybe I’ll see you there. Or hopefully I’ll be redeemed by then. To be honest, I’ve no hope for you. Took advantage of both your kids for finances. Never payed all child support. Funny how you wanted me aborted. But sins of lust and greed are quite powerful.
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